Monday, April 28, 2003

K, I seriusly wasn't thinking at all about this thing...Well whatever, My Password for Yahoo got changed by some unintelligent thug, and rather then call them and ask them to tell me what it is, I've done, pretty much nothing....DOn't really matter....besides their bandwidth sucked a major egg, so I'm done with that business....If I get determined I can start a new one...not likely in this century though...Anyways, School gets out in 2 weeks, and I am excited...my last 2 weeks on curfew....and also I am going home earlyer than expected.......hahaha no one is reading this.....

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

whew, it's been two weeks, a greek exam alter and several weeks worth of assignments, and I'm back
Things have not really changed...alas......but whatever, I am dull and I want to go have crazy adventures, but I'm so retracting from society now.....alas.......talk to yah later.....

Monday, January 27, 2003

Today was super productive....At the end of this week I should be done with OT and Critical Thinking...hooray!...yeah it's awesome I'm super busy...there's two papers due next week and one the week after that and one the week after that...So I'm busy, eh? Yeah I'm excited....things are still goin my way though...

Sunday, January 26, 2003

Well, It's been a while, and I have ahd a great week, and yeah...Ultimate and Ben hur on saturday, followed by booty work and then Church, SuperBowl---Super Bowl was awesome!! Go Bucs, been rooting for them since '97...yeeh!! ANyways, I don't really have anything but I will try to make stuff happen more often, with the whole ...thing...making entries in my journal. I am always learning (and re-learning) stuff about myself..,..later

Thursday, January 23, 2003

wow, well classes are in full swing, I'm gonna be worked this semester. I"m already ahead of the game though, so I need to catch up in greek and not flub my other classses...thursday willl be my hardest day while Friday will be my easiest day, and I dunno about that class voice....I have to learn how to breath again....anyways, I have to study for greek, so I'll write more about my classes laterz.

Friday, January 17, 2003

WOW, it's been quite the 2 days. On Thursday, I started out with a session in the morning (Johnny mac preaching it up) which was pretty good, then I went to an even better seminar by my favorite english teacher, Jo Suzuki, on postmodernism, which was really informative, cause it's not at all cut and dry like I thought it was, it's the proverbial jello that you can never nail to the wall. It was interesting. Then I worked, then I ate fast then played Ultimate, then came back and worked then ate real quick, than heard Art Azurdia give a fantastic message on Atonement from Isaiah 53...beautiful, man, simply stunning, and he's so passionate, I'm not sure i could handle that much overwhelmingness every week. But he's phenomenal as a special speaker. Then this morning was Art again, which wasn't as hot, I think cause they had a few technical difficulties, and well, that was the same last year, Art preached 2 sermons, and the 1st was a lot more captivating and powerful than the 2nd. But the first one was really great, so I definitely learned a lot. Then I went to a seminar on philosophy and the presentation of the Gospel based on Acts 17...it was really good, cause I was really closed-minded when it came to apologetics, and now I think I have a better grasp of what both sides of the coin look like, so to speak. Then I worked then ate, and had a nice hour to not do anything before frisbee....And frisbee these last two days has been FUN. Like "awesome, everything I expected and more" kind of fun. We had a few overtime games, really even matches, and it was a lot of fun, and then today my team womped hardcore, 10-3 and 10-1 (10-1 against the wind, too) which is always a good feeling, scoring at will and all that, especially when the teams seem pretty even by the names...I guess there's more to it than the tangibles, though, yah know?....anyways, yeah I want 5 cd's, so I need 20 bucks somehow, which, well I mae a vow noto to buy anything unless I was in need, cause I buy waaaaaaay too much out of want and out of rationalizing purchases...no more books, no more cd's, I need to save my money....and then I will get something I really genuinely need, and be prepared for emergencies, and stuff....yeah, I was severely convicted by Dr. Mackey's personal finance advice. Well this is booty long, and I'm gonna go write some other stuff somewhere else...bye 4 now.

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

Shoot! I thought of an awesome new name for this journal, but I can't remember now...oh well. Today was another great day, I did nothin' much in the first half of the day, but then I worked for a couple hours and MAN am I out of shape...not that I'm really in shape, but I was stronger and had tougher callouses and more indurence in December than I do now...It'll come back though. Tonight was fabulous, erwin lutzer, a pastor from Chicago, and Moody Bible guy, preached on what makes Christ different from all other Gods, it was really good and really succinct, he stuck to 2 verses and had 1 cross reference, and really squeezed all the good juice out of those he chose. He only took about 45 minutes of his hour too. Not much applicational stuff, though, he will present that in his follow up on Friday Night. Lutzer was canadian and he said Canada's contribution to the war against Iraq was a couple of rowboats, a few shotguns and a bi-plane. I think it would be nice if they threw in a snowboarding team, or maybe a few ice-dancers. Nobody messes with canadian ice-dancers. Well, I'm off to read Zecheriah, more later.

Monday, January 13, 2003

mmmm...sleep.....first day i got to sleep in so that felt great...I think the tea helped me sleep, but that might just be an old wives tale I heard somewhere. Well, back to my reading. I got nothing exciting planned for today. Oh yeah mental notes:
So far I've been to
-Gravity Hill
-Nike Point
-Angeles National Forest
-Aurora Flats
-Texas Canyon
-Palmdale/Lancaster
-Ventura

And I want to go to
-Devils punchbowl
-llanos del rio
-the tunnel of death (kurt's train)
-I guess I don't know what else is out there if I haven't seen it or been told about it....I will continue to mark stuff
Yeehah, It was great, I saw the stars and the whole SCV and some other valley's I dunno.....I could see all the way to palmdale, practically. And when you get above that smog layer, the air is so fresh and crisp and clean and good. And then you can actually see what your about to go back to breathing....kinda gave me the jibblies. But it was a crazy go nuts evening...I saw Jupiter and all my favorite constolations, and learned about some less popular ones....atleast to me. Then it was tea and Becca and me swaped backrubs, which I haven't had a good back rub in like, a year, so it felt great...I am starting to enjoy the evening tea, I had some at Best Wok (great asian tea) and I didn't really mind the stuff Becca made for us...weird, I think I will always prefer cold drinks, even when it gets down to 40 degrees in the SCV. I need to make mental notes of all the rad places around here, LA county is pretty sweet.

Sunday, January 12, 2003

Well today was fatty mcfatfat. I went to a new church, which was good except for flat worship, and I didn't really connect with the pastor, but he still seems like a really cool guy...I reckon I'll be sticking with COC though. Then me and Dan got lunch and went bouldering around (extremely amateur bouldering) at Texas Canyon, this closed down state park that everyone still goes to. it was dope, I wish I had my camera though. I have more but I am going to go star gazing with dan and Becca Rea...and if Dan is there I have the sneaking suspicion that Jane will be too....just cause....yah know, no reason. Peace out

Saturday, January 11, 2003

Yee hah, I got an A in Econ, no sweat even, and today we played ultimate...it was good. it was great even. I miss Megan and Erin and Justin though...yeah missing people here and back home is definitely not the ideal situation. Oh well, I don't really have much to worry about, and tomorrow is Sunday, and then I have like 3 days off. mmm, yeah. TIme to read Isaiah.

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

And Cadet's "The girl"
Oh yeah I originally got this idea from the Song by Philmore entitled "Wish you were here"
I am a total slacker, but I don't wanna study, so I'll try writing something. I figured out my "philosophy on dating" while I was talking to my friend Sarah, and like most things I do and think, it's different from other people, especially from most girls which is a shame, cause they're the ones I want to date. Anyways, It sounds bad at first, but makes sense, that dating is no big deal, at all, and it shouldn't be so pressurized, like it is...especially at small Christian Schools. Dating isn't marriage, and treating it like it is extremely presumptuous and an error on the part of most people. I think that dating someone who is not your spouse should be extremely innocent and light hearted, and have boundries, not just physical, but relational as well. you should get to know the person as well as you can, but they, well, your just dating, youre not united in spirit. I don't have any applicational data right now, obviously, but the idea seems so easy in my head. Anyways, the reason it shouldn't really matter whether your dating, or just friends, or whatever, is that your still living individual lives and not sharing a life. You are still responsible for your self. All the time i ehar people stressing over "is he the one", "is this what God wants me to do", "Is this the Lord's will". If you're in a right relationship with God, and being obedient, than you have NOTHING to lose. If it's not God's will and your doing your job of obeying God, then you won't commit any sin's that you wouldn't have anyway with or without the relationship, and you will know if it's God's will or not through the course of the relationship, and if your guarding your heart, then even if the other person hurts you, you won't be vulnerable, in theory. This all goes along with my theory of the world, from 1 Thessalonians 5:21-22. Test everything and cleave to what is good. You have nothing to lose if God's spirit dwells within you, and Christians CANNOT stand still.
I don't feel comfortable buying things online cause I feel like I can't assess them unless I can see them in front of me and handle them and determine there worth to me. So I'm going to take a loss of 20 bucks cause I have the luxury of getting either new books or picking the best of the used books out from the book store, instead of just going on some ones "best attempt" of describing the quality of a book to me in written words. And If I were to try and get them new, the bookstore does offer better prices. They just don't mark down the used stuff enough. but this way it will be in my hands instantly instead of on a plane in massachussets. Am I rationalizing or just weighing the options and making a less popular decision on the tradeoff value? I'm not sure. Thats another reason that I can't make the best decisions, because I'm so not objective, and I feel like my own perception is invalid in making assessments. I severely lack discernment of my very life. Thats probably why I struggle with self evaluation so much, eh? Well in any case, I'm buying books from the bookstore. After all If people were all suckers for shopping there, no one would shop there, right? see that was totally just rationalizing right there, but I'm comfortable with what I'm buying from them. As long as I don't have to buy that singing book. What a waste that would be.

Tuesday, January 07, 2003

I know what you're saying...uh Matt, whats with the rocks at the top of the page. The answer is, "well you see, there are pictures of rocks at the top of my little journal here, I hope you enjoyed them, they're 'decorative rocks'." I hope you leave this website a smarter and more fulfilled person, having acquired this information.
I am weird. Like really really weird. Like you're reading this and your thinking "Matt, I know, you're weird, everyones weird." But thats not what i mean. I mean most people have some uniting quality, and follow some common trend even involuntariily. Not me. I am an abnormal person. And as weird as this sounds, being weird is not always a good thing. I mean to start off I'm very arbitrary as far as my decision making and opinion forming is concerned. I am also extremely contrary, I've noticed, and so sometimes I feel like I'm just arguing for no reason with people...I've done this a lot less since I got saved, but still, that is an odd combination to be contrary and arbitrary. I think it's only certain people that draw out the latter, though. Anyways, because I'm that way, everything I do in life does not follow any discernible pattern. Now that might seem okay at first, but most people do have discernible patterns, and they identify them and can make sounder and wiser judgements as they gain experience. Not me. Every decision I make feels like the first of it's kind, atleast as far as specific circumstances and details are relevant. Any patterns I have been able to pick out seem pretty odd too, as though forming by accident, and not really worthwhile to factor into my daily conduct. I am weird. Like really really weird.

Monday, January 06, 2003

Ooooooooooooooooookay, I'm back from Washington, where I was too lazy to make any entry's...I had some crazy go nuts adventures though...a couple things didn't go as planned, but I figured out a couple things too, so it balances out, and I am once again hopeful for the future of Matt. Otherwise, Washington was great 3 parties and numerous other assorted "get togethers", and I finally caught Dinner with Anna...she is much more mature that I remember, not that i thought she was ever immature, and just really cool, and she never doesn't know what to say..or she always doesn't, and she just talks, but either way she is one of the best conversationalists. And I got to spend some quality time with Shawn, which is great, cause we haven't done that since High School....I also discovered how weird I am, but more on that later.